Parenting. Refinement.

  Well I created the blog about 9 months ago and now I have a decided to write on it.  Today I have been struck with how much parenting is refinement to my character.  I impatiently blew up at my daughter for her not listening to me and then realized it was my 1 year old son who was the culprit.  Later Maia and I were beading necklaces and I got impatient when she would not listen to my advice on how to string the beads.  However, as I waited a couple minutes she was beading a whole string of them on her own.  Talk about weaknesses on my part.  So as I have been convinced already and always will be that I am growing through this too.  I think there is a stigma that as parents we are to be these great examples for our kids to model after when in reality we are people who fail too.  We lose our patience, we say things that we wish we could take back, we grumble and complain, and the list goes on.  I speak completely on my own weaknesses here.  Parenting brings light to them each day and I am learning that there is lots I have to work on.  I am not a perfect person and I need to allow my kids to see that, but in the same way they also need to see how I come to terms with my imperfections by apologizing and admitting that I was wrong in the way I behaved.  I think that is how we  model how to be a person who is growing and changing in life.  I don't want them to think that the goal in life is to have it all together, but to become someone who is always willing to learn and grow as a person.  We can always get better as we work on things that we are weak in.  So thanks to my 2 yr old and 1 yr old I am becoming a better person because they bring the worst out of me.   They test me to my limits and then cause me to come back to a place of remorse which reminds me that I do not have it all together, but I am sure trying and desiring to be the best mom I can be.

Pilot

So I decided to start a little blog to share thoughts on being a mother with two little ones.  My intent was just to have a place to share stories, sayings, frustrations and joys of being a mom.  I find that my feeling of being overwhelmed is what sparked my interest in writing a blog, but now I am even more convinced that it is the joyful times in motherhood that make is worthwhile.  Yes there will always be stories of how one of my kids basically flooded our bathroom floor with her bath water or how the other one decided blowing raspberries was fun when I was in the process of feeding him.  However, there are so many joys involved.  Like the simple I love you's when I the mom is needing to have an attitude change.  The quiet times of all of us just sitting on the floor playing while one child is on me reading her book.  I know I will share times of feeling overwhelmed, but my goal is to be grateful for where I am in life.  So I hope that comes across well.  I am so thankful for my little family and for the hard work my husband does in order for me to experience being at home with my kids.  For that I am truly blessed!